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Death is only the beginning........... Elayne Trakand - 27/01/2003 06:25:42 AM

So why do I feel like my life has ended?

My fiancé is dead. He is no longer in this world. He has passed away. He was injured in a car crash and didn’t survive the operation. There are a lot of ways of putting it but it all amounts to the same thing. My fiancé is no longer alive.

It’s been nearly 8 hours since I found out and for about 2 hours I was in denial or shock. I just couldn’t believe that he was dead. I mean, how could he? How could he break all his promises? He promised he would always be by my side, helping me, loving me?

How do I feel? I feel angry. Angry that he was taken from me. Angry at him for going away. Angry that he was stupid enough to drive at high speed; I kept telling him, kept asking him, to either give up his motorcycle or drive slower. I told him he would one day get hurt. I didn’t realise he would get so hurt that he’d die. Most of all I feel angry at God, for taking him away. Why him? Why not the driver of the car? Why my Ash?

Nothing I can do about it. Destiny, fate, kismet. He was preordained to die. God does everything for a reason, sometimes we just don’t understand those reasons. But it doesn’t make it any easier to deal with it. We had our whole life planned out, y’know? I was gonna study while he worked in India. Once I got my degree we’d get married and live happily ever after. He was supposed to visit me in a month’s time. I had all the stuff planned. Where we’d go, what we’d see, where we’d eat, who we would meet. I wanted to show him off to all of my friends and now what do I have?

Thanks for listening. I’m not very eloquent when it comes to talking about feelings. I hope you understood.

To the well organised mind, death is but the next great adventure.







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Death is only the beginning........... - 27/01/2003 06:25:42 AM 410 Views
You poor thing.... - 27/01/2003 06:33:06 AM 36 Views
Thank you *NM* - 27/01/2003 06:01:17 PM 3 Views
oh, Aimee...I'm so sorry for you - 27/01/2003 06:34:03 AM 30 Views
My Thoughts are with You - 27/01/2003 06:34:52 AM 33 Views
I don't know if there is much I can say - 27/01/2003 06:37:59 AM 26 Views
*hugs* I'm very sad to hear that.... - 27/01/2003 06:41:24 AM 21 Views
*just sits for a few minutes, frowning* - 27/01/2003 06:53:39 AM 57 Views
Thank you. This post really touched me. - 27/01/2003 06:05:42 PM 16 Views
I'm glad something finally came out that was worthwhile. - 27/01/2003 06:45:45 PM 11 Views
My thoughts and prayers are with you. - 27/01/2003 06:55:21 AM 18 Views
I am saddened by your loss - 27/01/2003 06:57:44 AM 27 Views
ah, darlin' - 27/01/2003 07:06:51 AM 23 Views
Aimee..I'm so sorry. - 27/01/2003 07:07:01 AM 23 Views
Aimee I am sorry. - 27/01/2003 07:27:37 AM 18 Views
*hugs* - 27/01/2003 07:29:21 AM 26 Views
thats dreadful - 27/01/2003 08:04:31 AM 15 Views
oh Aimee, I'm so sorry - 27/01/2003 09:34:56 AM 24 Views
thanks sweetie *hugs back* - 27/01/2003 06:08:33 PM 11 Views
my thoughts are with you and remember... - 28/01/2003 03:00:48 PM 4 Views
*hugs* I'm so sorry... - 27/01/2003 09:44:06 AM 14 Views
I wish there was a way I could help more - 27/01/2003 10:32:09 AM 13 Views
What can I possibly say? - 27/01/2003 10:32:14 AM 41 Views
What you've said has touched me deeply - 27/01/2003 06:21:52 PM 16 Views
*hugs* I've been praying. - 28/01/2003 04:24:58 AM 11 Views
*hugs* I'm so sorry... - 27/01/2003 10:53:53 AM 11 Views
I'm so sorry... - 27/01/2003 11:17:00 AM 10 Views
Hugs Aimee tightly I am so sorry for your loss - 27/01/2003 11:23:45 AM 12 Views
I'm so sorry*hugs muchly* - 27/01/2003 11:26:07 AM 9 Views
Dudeette, I'm sorry. - 27/01/2003 12:07:26 PM 15 Views
Oh, dear. I wish there was something I could say... - 27/01/2003 12:07:50 PM 13 Views
I'm terribly sorry - 27/01/2003 01:05:23 PM 12 Views
There is nothing I can say.... - 27/01/2003 01:18:33 PM 11 Views
I give you my deepest condolences... - 27/01/2003 02:20:14 PM 19 Views
A question... - 28/01/2003 05:49:30 AM 20 Views
I am sorry... - 27/01/2003 02:44:27 PM 9 Views
I am so very sorry - 27/01/2003 03:10:02 PM 6 Views
Oh. - 27/01/2003 03:14:36 PM 13 Views
I'm so sorry, Aimee... *hugs again* - 27/01/2003 03:26:20 PM 11 Views
*hugs* - 27/01/2003 04:44:21 PM 12 Views
oh, Aimee *hugs you close* - 27/01/2003 05:07:50 PM 11 Views
Oh my goodness! I'm so sorry, Aimee... - 27/01/2003 05:21:21 PM 10 Views
I'm sorry for your loss. *NM* - 27/01/2003 05:40:37 PM 4 Views
Loss is always difficult to deal with - 27/01/2003 06:12:27 PM 9 Views
Aimee - 27/01/2003 06:42:01 PM 8 Views
Im sorry to hear that *NM* - 27/01/2003 06:46:06 PM 3 Views
I feel sorry for you - 27/01/2003 07:00:49 PM 7 Views
Very, very sorry for your loss - 27/01/2003 07:31:07 PM 7 Views
Aimee... - 27/01/2003 08:06:38 PM 12 Views
Oh my gosh . . . I'm so sorry. - 27/01/2003 09:06:32 PM 6 Views
Re: Death is only the beginning........... - 27/01/2003 09:31:46 PM 9 Views
I'm so sorry to hear that, hon. - 27/01/2003 10:33:48 PM 8 Views
I'm very sad to hear of this *NM* - 28/01/2003 02:45:12 AM 5 Views
*hugs* I'm so sorry - 28/01/2003 04:12:23 AM 9 Views
I can't say much..... - 28/01/2003 01:40:00 PM 9 Views
Crappola. - 28/01/2003 01:40:11 PM 13 Views
thats terrible - 28/01/2003 04:08:11 PM 13 Views
I'm so sorry I missed this post before ... - 29/01/2003 12:49:59 PM 12 Views
I'm so so sorry - 29/01/2003 08:51:37 PM 7 Views
I'm so sorry for you - 30/01/2003 06:43:55 AM 2 Views
*is quite speechless* - 30/01/2003 06:17:38 PM 6 Views