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You're apologizing for the wrong thing. nossy Send a noteboard - 15/03/2017 12:28:57 PM

View original postIf you are put off by narcissistic, self-indulgent bullshit, please don’t read any further. I feel you. I’m good with that. More often than not, I would be right there.

That's silly. This isn't narcissistic or si-bs, it's life. So don't apologize for needing to get the poison out.
View original postIt’s not working.

View original postPeople make fatuous statements about how each day will get a little bit easier.

View original postThey’re wrong.

No, I imagine it won't work for a while. Those people aren't wrong, but three weeks is no time at all. I'm so sorry it's so hard, but it's impossible to force it. I'm sure it's harder when it's a spouse, but from my experience with my father's death, I can say you need more time. Much more time.



View original postI always viewed myself as a tough old son of a bitch. Not anymore. I weep like a baby at the drop of a hat. Songs, TV shows, lines in books and magazines, even watching the snowfall today, fill me with an irrevocable sense of loss. These were all things I formerly shared with the most important person in my life. I can’t anymore. I never will again.

You are tough, but you're also human. It has always pissed me off that society makes men think they are weak if they cry. It's complete nonsense, and you have no control over it. THIS IS SAD. BE SAD. It says absolutely nothing about your true character. And anyway, screw anyone who might think it's weakness. Your wife would have known that true character and loved THAT, not your tough bastard shell.
View original postI apologize once again for this sappy drivel. I’m ashamed to be writing it. The simple act of visualizing my feelings as I type them into a word doc somehow eases the constant ache in my heart. So I guess I’m doing it for me. Please don’t feel compelled to reply. I’m not looking for pity. I’m trying to convince myself there is a reason to keep going. I try to focus on my kids, my granddaughter, and how much they need me. While I believe that’s true, on an emotional level I just want to be with Laurel again.

I know what you mean, and even though this is going to sound like I stole it from Hallmark, I'm going to say it anyway. I truly, deeply believe that Laurel is there. She's you and your kids and grandkids, now.
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I apologize to all of you for what I am about to write. - 15/03/2017 03:12:32 AM 934 Views
The only thing I can say..... - 15/03/2017 03:46:59 AM 752 Views
yes, that's true. - 15/03/2017 03:35:43 PM 728 Views
A geek's answer - 15/03/2017 05:39:33 AM 789 Views
I'm impressed. - 15/03/2017 03:23:46 PM 696 Views
All right. This might be worth you reading, then. - 15/03/2017 06:19:00 AM 761 Views
I agree with the basic concept. - 15/03/2017 03:21:42 PM 680 Views
You have no need to apologize. - 15/03/2017 10:59:02 AM 771 Views
That's an excellent suggestion. - 15/03/2017 03:17:59 PM 698 Views
You feel what you feel. And you don't need to say sorry. - 15/03/2017 12:11:22 PM 659 Views
I hate to burden others - 15/03/2017 03:16:57 PM 689 Views
You're apologizing for the wrong thing. - 15/03/2017 12:28:57 PM 820 Views
I've never had any macho issues with showing my feelings - 15/03/2017 03:14:54 PM 707 Views
<3 - 15/03/2017 06:07:56 PM 614 Views
*hugs* *NM* - 15/03/2017 01:59:03 PM 373 Views
*hugs back. hard* *NM* - 15/03/2017 03:10:42 PM 363 Views
We are here for you. *NM* - 15/03/2017 02:18:04 PM 484 Views
Hell, don't apologize to us. And run with the pain, not from it. - 15/03/2017 02:46:26 PM 689 Views
I can't imagine what it would be like to have your child murdered. - 15/03/2017 03:10:00 PM 668 Views
**manhugs with loving back pats** *NM* - 15/03/2017 03:20:37 PM 400 Views
I'm Italian-American. Italian men hug. *NM* - 16/03/2017 01:34:29 AM 385 Views
I'm glad you can share with us and maybe, just maybe, get some comfort from us. - 15/03/2017 05:27:33 PM 657 Views
It's more than just maybe - 15/03/2017 06:13:13 PM 693 Views
There is bleeding all over the internet and there is true sharing that touches everyone who reads it - 15/03/2017 06:52:25 PM 680 Views
That's a good point and one I think of constantly. - 16/03/2017 12:21:49 AM 737 Views
There is no shame in this.... - 15/03/2017 07:46:43 PM 800 Views
Thanks, Jeo - 16/03/2017 12:26:29 AM 737 Views
Like the others said... - 15/03/2017 08:22:14 PM 720 Views
me too - 16/03/2017 12:22:52 AM 624 Views
A deep cut to your heart... - 15/03/2017 09:16:40 PM 738 Views
Re: A deep cut to your heart... - 16/03/2017 12:27:52 AM 697 Views
Oh Mook, Thank you for sharing. - 16/03/2017 05:03:21 PM 922 Views
No apology needed... - 19/03/2017 03:15:01 PM 688 Views

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