And other poems for the one that is lost...

The first is actually my letter to the one I call, The KoryTroll. Should he darken this post... well, he'll regret that. The last is a song, the other two are for you Kory. I miss you honey. I think of you so often. I go to talk to you so often. I still have all your names saved, your numbers. I try not to regret not meeting you when I was supposed to. It's hard. I hope you're proud of us. We're ok. Not great, but getting better. Save a laugh for us. We'll see you soon.

Love always, Maddy.

He wasn't perfect.

You know he had his vices.
He wasn't always kind.
He could be filled with
rage and hatred,
the same as you and I.

He wasn't perfect.
Why do you act as if
the sun rose and set in his whim.
As if he never did wrong
by any man or woman.

How are you so blind,
that you cannot see.
You're refusal to understand
angers and sickens me.
The rage of a troll.

He wasn't perfect.
Don't you think we know?
But we've each our reasons
for loving him, mourning him
Let me make you understand.

sometimes, he was tender.
And sometimes he was kind.
Sometimes he was a brother
and he'll always be
a friend of mine.

Often he was funny.
Often he was deep.
He could be reflective
and sentimental
or shamed.

Mostly, he was human
just like you and I.
Born to suffer rages.
Open to his fears.
Allowed to make his errors.

No human is perfect,
unless you believe
perfection is in the
balance
of all your right and wrongs.

My answer to your question,
I think is in these lines.
Human weakness is perfection
perfection that we over come in time.
We love him for his weakness.

We love him for his strength.
We love him for what he saw in us
and for showing us himself.
We know that he's not perfect,
but you are the one that doesnt understand.

~~~~~
367

it's been a year already
367 days that went so fast
you've been gone longer
than i even knew you
yet i'll know you
all my life.

i can't tell you how
i miss you.
how much there is
i regret.
i am sorry i never
met you
i wish i'd called again
heard you laugh again.
i didnt know you'd be
gone.

we've all moved forward
one word can tunr us back
i know you're out there
laughing.
smiling
you are the one that gets the joke.

sometimes i look to see you
i think of you and want to say
hello.
sometimes i sware you're there
to laugh with.
to cry with
you're there.

it's been a year since we
lost you
367 days have passed
a year and a day since you left us
but you are never gone
never far
always, you're in our hearts

~~~~~~~~~

Did you think of me?

In those final moments.
Does life race by?
Do you see yourself
from the outside?

Did you see the pain
you caused?
Did you see the joy
and love we shared?

Did you see me there?
Did I beam with love?
Could you see my smiles?
You put me at ease.

Did you know I'd miss you?
Did you think I'd cry?
Did you hope we wouldnt worry?
Did you, when you died?

I hope that you went quickly
And that you felt no pain
I hope that you thought of me
And knew the love i feel

For you I will be ever greatful
Your friendship makes me strong
And though I'll never see you
I know you in my heart
~~~~~~~~~
The Edges Of Your Day by Jim Croce

Where there is a dream there is a hope for you
Where there is a love there is a way
Coming from the edges of the night to you
Coming from the edges of your day
Waiting in all your towers, keeping all my flowers

If you need me come close now and receive me

While there is a moment there is a time for you
Even though your time is far away
Deep within the night I send my love to you
Reaching for the edges of your day
Spending all my hours, dreaming of your towers
If you need me come close now and receive me



Those were the days, my friend.

You are my audience, always

Kalin: Our Bond is so strong, I taste it when you drink tequila
Vegas '05 & '06

Don't use words I don't understand ~ Eric, True Blood