And other poems for the one that is lost...

The first is actually my letter to the one I call, The KoryTroll. Should he darken this post... well, he'll regret that. The last is a song, the other two are for you Kory. I miss you honey. I think of you so often. I go to talk to you so often. I still have all your names saved, your numbers. I try not to regret not meeting you when I was supposed to. It's hard. I hope you're proud of us. We're ok. Not great, but getting better. Save a laugh for us. We'll see you soon.

Love always, Maddy.

He wasn't perfect.

You know he had his vices.

He wasn't always kind.

He could be filled with

rage and hatred,

the same as you and I.

He wasn't perfect.

Why do you act as if

the sun rose and set in his whim.

As if he never did wrong

by any man or woman.

How are you so blind,

that you cannot see.

You're refusal to understand

angers and sickens me.

The rage of a troll.

He wasn't perfect.

Don't you think we know?

But we've each our reasons

for loving him, mourning him

Let me make you understand.

sometimes, he was tender.

And sometimes he was kind.

Sometimes he was a brother

and he'll always be

a friend of mine.

Often he was funny.

Often he was deep.

He could be reflective

and sentimental

or shamed.

Mostly, he was human

just like you and I.

Born to suffer rages.

Open to his fears.

Allowed to make his errors.

No human is perfect,

unless you believe

perfection is in the

balance

of all your right and wrongs.

My answer to your question,

I think is in these lines.

Human weakness is perfection

perfection that we over come in time.

We love him for his weakness.

We love him for his strength.

We love him for what he saw in us

and for showing us himself.

We know that he's not perfect,

but you are the one that doesnt understand.

~~~~~

367

it's been a year already

367 days that went so fast

you've been gone longer

than i even knew you

yet i'll know you

all my life.

i can't tell you how

i miss you.

how much there is

i regret.

i am sorry i never

met you

i wish i'd called again

heard you laugh again.

i didnt know you'd be

gone.

we've all moved forward

one word can tunr us back

i know you're out there

laughing.

smiling

you are the one that gets the joke.

sometimes i look to see you

i think of you and want to say

hello.

sometimes i sware you're there

to laugh with.

to cry with

you're there.

it's been a year since we

lost you

367 days have passed

a year and a day since you left us

but you are never gone

never far

always, you're in our hearts

~~~~~~~~~

Did you think of me?

In those final moments.

Does life race by?

Do you see yourself

from the outside?

Did you see the pain

you caused?

Did you see the joy

and love we shared?

Did you see me there?

Did I beam with love?

Could you see my smiles?

You put me at ease.

Did you know I'd miss you?

Did you think I'd cry?

Did you hope we wouldnt worry?

Did you, when you died?

I hope that you went quickly

And that you felt no pain

I hope that you thought of me

And knew the love i feel

For you I will be ever greatful

Your friendship makes me strong

And though I'll never see you

I know you in my heart

~~~~~~~~~

The Edges Of Your Day by Jim Croce

Where there is a dream there is a hope for you

Where there is a love there is a way

Coming from the edges of the night to you

Coming from the edges of your day

Waiting in all your towers, keeping all my flowers

If you need me come close now and receive me

While there is a moment there is a time for you

Even though your time is far away

Deep within the night I send my love to you

Reaching for the edges of your day

Spending all my hours, dreaming of your towers

If you need me come close now and receive me


Vegas: 2005, 2006, next?

Your job is to focus on my personal happiness, she said, & I've got big plans, so break time is over.

Kory

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