My Dad was an alcoholic, suicidal (well, he threatened to. so fucked up) bastard who cheated on my Mom. That was about ten years ago. It has all been swept under the carpet ages ago and my parents are still together. I have mixed feelings about my parents. Dad in particular, of course. My parents marital problems were also the reason for me not having a lot of friends as a teenager.

Now I'm a homophobic gay man (I sometimes wonder if my parents are not to blame?) and have the same problem that every other gay person has. Am I masculine enough?

Oh, and I'm in love with my straight friend. He doesn't mind, I do. It's annoying. (this as a sort of comic relief)

I guess everyone thinks that their problems are massive compared to other people's. And maybe all that age old shit still affects me. Can't be helped.