I don't understand, maybe a visit to a therapist and the family doctor? I generally try to keep my meltdowns in check until Shae is away. Sometimes i succeed and other times not so much. I have panic attacks and feel trapped occasionally. somehow I always thought having a caring partner, would alleviate such meltdowns, but apparently, that doesn't work, either, which leaves me a little bummed. I hope your family pulls through this. I honestly, truly do.

I don't know what or why. Not even now after talking with her about it although an awful lot of it seems 'internal' rather than external. As in it actually only peripherally had to do with me.

Which is quite messed up since I'm the one who got messed up by it, but there you are.

Still, when people are in trouble they don't always do the smartest or best thought out things. Maybe some good will come of it. I hope so.