To me, there is nothing more exciting in this life than the thrill of the hunt. That's what I always loved about dating. The new experience, the excitement in getting the woman to like you. When I'm in the middle of flirting, my heart is pounding rapidly. The look in her eyes, the calculated touch of my hand against hers...

I met the love of my life and got married. I am completely and utterly satisfied with my life. I love my wife dearly. But I can't escape the allure of the forbidden romance. I still flirt like crazy. I eagerly await my next chance to entice a woman into thinking bad thoughts about me. There is no greater high for me than this chase. It occupies my waking mind constantly. I'm always checking out the women at work, thinking of ways to integrate myself into their lives. Break down their barriers slowly.

I've come close to cheating twice. Both times I backed out because I got cold feet. I love my wife too much to risk losing her. But I just can't stop directly or indirectly pursuing women. And it's not even about sex. It's all the moments that lead up to sex. The women I flirt with are aware that I'm married. Most of them are too. But I form friendships with beautiful women, or women with nice breasts or a nice butt, basically whatever attracted me to them. In time, they tell me intimate details about their lives. Those are the moments I savor. To get a woman to that point, where it becomes inappropriate...ambrosia.

I wouldn't have a dilemma if I didn't truly love my wife. She's perfect for me. I want to spend the rest of my life with her. But the best moments in life are the passionate ones, the ones that get your heart pumping. Chasing women does this. Any advice? How should I handle this? I haven't gone totally over the line yet, but I fear that's only a matter of time.